Everyday Life for Four Seasons

Usually I take an optimistic approach to life, and today is no exception. But sometimes I just want to whine. And today is one of those days. I went to a physical therapy appointment today to work on my shoulder and neck (and that darn dislocated rib problem). I found out that one of my vertebrae is twisted. It'll get worked on, and worked out. On my way home, my car died in the middle of the road. It's almost a new car - less than 3 years old! It's in the shop now and I await the verdict, and the bill. These days, car repairs don't come cheap. Everything is computerized and in turn, super-expensive. Today we missed a nature walk with the 4-H group, and tomorrow we'll miss 'H's gymnastics class.

Maybe this is part of the Universe's grand plan to slow me down?

Is that my way of looking at this in a positive light?

On the up side, you wouldn't believe how many people helped me with my car. So many people stopped to make sure I was okay. They pushed my car out of the road, kept my girls safe, followed me to the nearest garage. At the garage, the mechanics gave me an assessment and didn't charge me. They sent me to my dealer, where the car is now. The guys who towed my car from the local shop to the dealer also gave me and the girls a ride home. All in all, it worked out as well as could be, and it made me happy all over again that I live in the tiny little town that I do.

I finally got some answers about my neck and shoulder pain today. It's a dislocated rib. Ouch! I got it by keeping my stress in my shoulders, which in turn pulled my rib loose. It's actually a really good diagnosis compared to what I expected to hear - that I have a hernitated disk in my neck or severe arthritis. A rib in the wrong spot is something I can work with. I start physical therapy tomorrow and hopefully I'll find some relief soon.

In the meantime, I've been thinking that I need to make some changes to take some of the pressure off. Yoga? Saying "no" more often? What else?

I'll tell you what was probably not the best idea, but something I did anyway tonight because I was scheduled to do it... I went to a coffee shop in town as a representative of the stewardship committee at the UU congregation, to talk with whoever wanted to stop by about the stewardship drive at church. We're asking for pledges of Time, Talent and Treasure. It was me and another stewardship rep there, no one from the congregation came to meet with us. My body would have been happier if I hadn't gotten in the car and gone out. But it's done, and I'm home now with my kava tea, so all is well.

On an unrelated note, have you had a chance to check out Sandi Henderson's book, Sewing Bits & Pieces? It's giving me things to dream about, and that feels good...

Hi there,

No photos. Just lots and lots of pain. My neck hurts. A lot. It takes all I have to make it through each moment. So, no photos until I feel better. Hopefully that'll be soon.

Planning to:

Order one of these Pluckfastic.org stickers for my water bottle... and maybe one for my car too

Can many jars of apple sauce and apple butter tomorrow afternoon

Make felted soap sometime with 'A' and 'H', just as Meg did recently

Get a little more organized here at home

And enjoy the rest of the weekend with my family!

This is the wonderful gift given to me yesterday by someone who loves food as much as I do. Wow, a clay pot cooker! I can't wait to break it in with the bag of root vegetables I received at the farm on Wednesday.

We had a good day today - some organized activities, some time spent in a not-so-organized way, cooking, playing, some volunteer work, and an evening with friends. Everything that makes me smile.

Yesterday and today:

apple picking; drop off dinner for a family with a new baby; pick up a wonderful fall vegetable box at the farm; wade in the creek; pet the goats; stop at the farmstand for late season corn; make sloppy lentils and corn on the cob for dinner.

visit a friend to meet her greyhounds (we all loved it, even 'H', surprisingly); clean out the clothing in 'A's and 'H's rooms, preparing for the cold weather that's sure to arrive any day; 'A's first 4-H meeting.

Tomorrow I'll show you the wonderful gift my greyhound friend gave me today. And I'll be making some applesauce and getting ready to can it. Finally, we'll welcome friends for dinner. I'm looking forward to the whole day.

Cooking dinner.

Breathing, and relaxing.

I'm happy.

I've been juggling our autumn schedule and wondering if I overscheduled the girls (and me) too much. I have. We're doing way too much all day, particularly at dinnertime. Part of it is because of the activities that 'A' and 'H' are doing, and part of it is because I keep signing myself up for volunteer work. I love all of the volunteer work I do, and I have found in the past that when I don't volunteer and have that unselfish, human connection in my life, I feel disconnected from the world, like I'm an island unto myself. But there has to be a point where I can't do any more, right? And with the girls' activities, that same point has to exist, doesn't it?

I'm still wading through this new territory. For now, I'm happy. I've realigned the way I spend my time. I still have the same amount to do, but now I put my girls and my homestead routine first, and all else second. I works better that way. I'm a better volunteer when I'm happy deep down inside.

Today:


Checking out the caterpillars winding through the grass...


...and watching fall crops grow in our garden. Brussels Sprouts, leeks, lettuces... and the cat looks fluffy and ready to pick too, doesn't she?

I don't know how it works in your house, but in our house, daily mail delivery is a BIG DEAL. When we're home, 'A' listens for the mail carrier's truck and both girls run out to check the mail box after she's passed the house. Then they wait outside for her drive back up the other side of the street, waving as she goes by.

Recently 'A' has taken her interest in the mail one step further, by sending drawings to her friends through the mail. She draws the picture, puts it in the envelope, seals it and puts on the stamp. I write the address. Then she brings the letter down to the mailbox, raises the flag, and waits for the mail carrier to come.

It's a lovely thing, raising a letter-writer. This can't be taught. It must come from within.

The day started out warm, then turned cooler. We had some of this (tomatoes ripening on the vine)...


...some of this (nasturtiums blooming in the garden)...


...time to enjoy this (dinner on the deck)...


...and at the same time, we had this (gold, orange and red leaves on the branches)...


...and this (leaves on the ground).

I am still having trouble easing into autumn. Today I had a very "grown up" moment (I thought it was!). I was outside and heard a flock of geese in the sky. I looked up and sure enough, they were in V formation, coming from the north, heading south. I normally would have thought, "there they go, leaving me here with this cold weather..." or some such pathetic thought. But today when I saw them, I thought, "Be well. Have a safe trip. It's a wonderful day for it. I'll be here, keeping this place safe for you while you're gone. I look forward to seeing you come back." That kind of thinking keeps me going and gives me purpose.

The Adirondack Balloon Festival is this weekend. Today we packed a picnic dinner and went to see 90 balloons take off. It didn't happen has planned - it was windy, so a few filled up with air but never took off. It was still fun. We were there with good friends and good food. The mountains surrounded us and the trees were wearing green, gold, orange and red. What could be better than that?

:: Breakfast ::

There was a different energy about today. For starters, the weather was warm. We enjoyed all three meals outside. And the trees are bursting with color and losing leaves already. But it was more than that. I had things to do today, but I somehow managed to stay focused on the basics - my children, my home, our meals, and things I was doing for others because I genuinely wanted to. There were obligations on the calendar, such as gymnastics class for 'H', and I had to prepare a few roasted root vegetable tarts for a friend at the UU church who bid on my tarts at the auction a few months ago. But those obligations felt like pleasures after the week I've had.

I've come to realize that there is too much going on in my life. I have work; volunteer work; motherhood; teaching 'A'; maintaining our home; having fun; and being creative. It doesn't all fit into the hours of the day. I won't be working that much longer. The rest is on-going. Now the question is, how do I balance it? If I make an effort to be uber-organized, keeping perfect track of our schedules, keeping up with my to-do list, I inevitably find that I feel constrained and tied down. On the other hand, if I don't keep track of what we're doing and let things sneak up on me, I feel lost and overwhelmed most of the time... but I do have moments of purely spontaneous happiness. I'm better able to relax in the moment, and that makes me feel better overall.

What to do? Cut down is one idea. Here I am, homeschooling my girls, and one of the reasons is because I don't want to be on the go all the time. And here I am, on the go all the time. There has to be a better way. It's going to take some time to find my way.


:: Roasted root vegetable tarts ::


:: Caren's flags to honor the fallen soldiers in Iraq ::